Somewhere in my mind there is a little army of mass confusers, reeking havoc,     trotting around and keeping my sense of self imprisoned and subdued.  It is too afraid to venture into to the dark, the unknown.  It clings to the beacon that signals security, safety, and same.  Around this war zone is a reservoir of doubt that I’ll  ever escape.

After staying up until midnight sobbing to my boyfriend about how lost I feel I was told I need to embrace my ADD.  It’s okay to like things for a month and move on-it’s what makes me, me.  I was also told to stop comparing myself to others who have found some kind of “niche” that seems to have made them successful.

One important lesson I have learned lately (and if you are in the same position as I, I recommend taking it seriously): STOP reading magazine articles, blogs, books, whatever, about woman or stay at home moms who had some kind of epiphany and are now running their own business, or making living off their newly found niche.

Just stop.  Because it will make you crazy.

I did.  I did go down that slide, in the rain, and got sopping wet!  I don’t know how many miles per hour I was going but, I was going fast.  And yes, I did.  I hurt myself.  But, the thrill, and the 5 minute long belly laugh that was involved was well worth it.

Check out the rest of the photos here

I didn’t take many photos.  I was too busy playing in the rain!

Sometimes there is a song.  A song that you can listen to in your favorite time and place.  For me, those favorites are home, in front of my window, on an rainy day.   The heater will be on, and mostly likely there will be a cup of hot chocolate in my hand, and cat curled up on my lap.  Winter is my favorite time of year.  Maybe, it’s because I’m such a fan of curling up with hot chocolate on a rainy day or maybe it’s because gray days are a good excuse to stay home and be quiet and introspective.  And then the song plays.  And all of the sudden I find myself in my favorite spot, with all of my favorite things, during my favorite weather and things just “click”.  I feel reassured and have a little sigh of relief.  This song will be that song, this winter.

Expression through cupcakes  3

Hello, there, imaginary readers.  This passed week has been filled with little surprises.  From my car breaking down, to a co-worker not talking to me (I have no idea why, and that is what makes it a surprise), to getting to see the moon through a telescope and doing, I think, surprisingly well on my algebra mid-term. Yes, so maybe bigger downs then ups last week but I’m sure the Ups will be making a comeback sometime soon.

It’s important to take a step a back and remember the little things.  Sometimes the little things are the only things that can help you see past that little cloud of confusion following us around.

Little things that cheer me up when I’m blue: Mini cupcakes, Gummy candies shaped like animals, Rain, and being off on a Monday morning so I can catch up on my blog, homework, and other miscellaneous things.

Also, one of my sewing projects puts a smile on my face.  In this class we make samples of various sewing techniques, such as interfacing, t-shirt collars, and…..pants.  They provide the material for these samples and of course I picked…..

Ha!  Does anyone know anyone really miniature that would love this fabulous pair of pants?!?!  And in case you can’t see, that’s a wine bottle print 😉

Wine bottles are another “little thing” that makes me happy but, at the moment I’ll settle for a hot cup of coffee.  It is only 10am, after all.

As for personal projects…still haven’t worked on my diorama. 

Actually, it has turned into Ewok’s favorite little nook 😐

I did however, begin creating a new apron.  I’m hoping to make a few for the holidays as gifts.  I supposes those can count as projects.  Here is the plan:

I’m thinking I’m going to switch the trim (Pink on top and green along sides and bottom) but, I haven’t decided yet.  That is the gist of it, though.

In other news, I’ve received an intriguing e-mail from Career Builder just now: How can the color you like the least help you find the job you love?  Oh, goody, another unproductive quiz!  I stopped myself from reading on.  I need to decide which color I like the least first as not to be swayed by biased opinions from the given options. Sooooo……(this is me thinking of my least favorite color)……

I’d say my least favorite color is Orange.  I like all colors really, but blues and greens are my favorite, reds pinks and purples are the next runner ups.  And I always like black and white.  I wear a lot of grey.  So, yeah, orange it is!

ORANGE:

“You like Orange the least

Your concerned, considerate persona makes you the ultimate pleaser.  When the going gets tough, you work harder and harder.

Success tip: Under promise and over deliver by critically evaluating a project, in conjunction with other deadlines, before you commit.

Interview power: Don’t overreach. Focus on a “right now” job that will later deliver a “dream” career.

Avoid co-worker clash: Others only do well what they enjoy. Don’t expect otherwise.

Best jobs for you: Consider pleasing occupations like customer service or PR.”

Well, Orange I glad I figured that out?

Expressing myself through cupcakes 2

So, what made me decide to post after being on a blogging hiatus for four months now?  For, starters, I’m going back to school this semester.  Really.  I’m actually going.  All this time spent on the computer these days, when a break is needed, I catch up on my Google Reader.  A long lost favorite: Geek In Heels.  All the Starwars, Nintendo, and artsy photo posts are enough to make any nerdy girl giddy with geeky glee.  Suddenly, I realized “wait! I have a blog too.”  I’ll never catch up with projects now that I have a million other things to do.  But, I’m keeping pretty busy, anyway.

The update:

Bought a stack of over priced  books and realized I don’t have a place to sit and read them so….

I built a desk. With lots of shelves. Which I had no problem filling with lots of stuff

I'm working on a painting: No, that's not some kind of weird alien space craft, it's going to be an umbrella. What it will be raining is still in question.

And grew the tiny-tiniest strawberries known to man

I really wish I could share photos of my birthday. But, I just don't know you that well. But, this glass I found, really says it all

That about sums it up. Along with educational non-sense, I'm also taking a sewing class and hopefully will be able to post some projects from that on here, as well. I think I'm off to a good start for the second half of the year. I have reflected before on how being really busy, with the good kind of busy, seems to give you more energy then if you're not busy. I guess, that is where my surge of energy is coming from. It's a challenge to squeeze all kinds of things into your day or week. And that makes having just five minutes of "nothing" all that much more enjoyable; a good time to do little things like catch up on your blog 😉 Until next time....